jag får höra att jag är en idiot och en massa annat.. men varför ska jag låssas vara glad när jag bara mår skit och inte orkar mera i alla fall?? jag menar varför ska jag ens försöka när allt som händer bara får mig att önska att jag var död?? känner mig liksom bara totalt värdelös.

Before when I was sad you used to be there and tell me that everything is gonna be ok..
but then suddendly you one day changed and then you were one of those people that bullied me..
You called me an idiot and then you started to be mean and you thought it was a funny joke but I don't think so, you said "fucking emo... can't you just go and hide and cry and cut yourself or comitt suicide..
well I guess I did cut and tried to comitt suicide but failed the suicide.
And now i wonder when I now still is sad, depressed, bullied, still hears that comments from you and now wishes that I was dead and still cuts... Is that "jokes" still funny???